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【♥ PERSONAL NOTES ⇣ 】
This is my version of an original Vocaloid song I released a couple of years ago. It's been such a long time that I'm able to see it from a somewhat different perspective now.
I was angry and hurt at the time of writing it. My relationship with this person is different today. They're still who they are and I don't know if we'll ever have the relationship I wished we had, but ...
It was really interesting to be able to see and hear so clearly how I felt back then, and it gave me an opportunity to reevaluate those feelings and put them to rest.
I get really nervous releasing originals of this nature. It's like sharing an audio diary entry, it's just me venting and speaking in rhyme.
I go into them thinking "These feelings are overwhelming and I have to express myself." I put my feelings into the music and the lyrics and listening back to the song I can hear them.
Writing and sharing my feelings is one of my only ways to honestly express myself.
Somewhere along the way here on YouTube I've become afraid of putting my honest feelings out there. Maybe it's the pressure that comes with gaining momentum or the result of the experiences I've had growing up. I just get nervous that it'll be 'taken the wrong way'.
In any case, I think the only way I'll ever be happy is if I can learn to see my reflection and just accept what I see, so I'll keep releasing songs that are honest - even if I'm afraid of what people think of me, or afraid of having to confront myself. I hope to keep improving along the way.
I can't wait to share the more recent things I've been working on. I've learned a lot about composing since "Poison". I even tried to go back and rework the instrumental a little bit but it's been so long all of the files are just broken lol.
Onward towards the future, I guess. Thank you for listening and for giving me a way to express myself. I couldn't do it without you guys, and it's a sort of once-in-a-lifetime opportunity I'll never take for granted. No matter what the future has in store, the fact that I ever got to write music and have this chance will be cherished by me forever.
Special thanks to Lunacy for the art! She's such a sweetie, and offered to help out of the kindness of her heart when my original artist disappeared. And of course, thank you to SynK for slaving away on the video for me and getting it done so quickly. I love u.
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